day one of blogging and I can truly say I've been a fucking little hipster through and through. I'M EVEN WEARING A BLOODY JESUS JERSEY! So now, to break the disgustingly hipster trend i shall speak about my feelings and such. Right now at this very moment in time, I feel content. Not overjoyed to the point where I could rip my clothes off and sing from the rooftops but happy enough (think tired, medicated student kinda happy). In other news, i'm extremely annoyed with my bladder that's probably making everyone in my classes think i'm either pregnant or a drug addict with my constant bathroom trips. Upon one of these bathrooms trips I realised how much more harmonious diversity was when we were kids. I remember not caring about what colour, culture etc etc the person I was playing with was and just wanting to make that fucking sandcastle or climb that fucking tree- there was no difference. Alas, and then we get old and think we are different and unique and we find reasons to not coexist but to protest. Not protest in the burning bra or civilian shoot out kinda way but our mini, self-protests where we scream "LOOK AT ME, I'M DIFFERENT FROM YOU AND THIS MATTERS"... which it does but in a weird way, it also doesn't. The most peaceful thing I've come to realise is that there is no truth. Truth is God and reality and all the shit that comes with that - all the shit in your head. It is a choice that is regurgitated from all the decisions made before us, all the decisions that made us. I am god and knowing this, I am free.
Science, religion and language will seduce all minds that want to be seduced but at the end of the day, there is no truth. I cannot think of myself as a victim of law and morality - both were decided by man as was instinct and humanity. We have learned to exist this way. I am desperately trying to find a new way... my way. THE RIGHT WAY... juuuuust kidding. But i've found my group of people and love that will get me there somehow whether it be mind-altering drugs or an innocent stumble upon a new philosophy, I will learn to exist as a choice not plagued by the sickly character we call humanity.
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